Why am I doing this?

As I sit here to begin this journey into blogging, I ask myself “why am I doing this?” The answer is simple and complicated at the same time.

I always thought it would be “cool” to have a blog. I didn’t know what I would write about, or why I would want to. After all, writing in high school English class was not one of my favorite activities. I preferred science. I like hands-on. But something happened last year that got me taking this seriously. It was Christmas Eve of 2019 and I was running frantically to the giant W box store (you know the one) to pick up last minute gifts and stocking stuffers. As I was heading out, I was thinking about my mom. She was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s and cancer. I was thinking about how this would most likely be our last Christmas with her, and how could we make it extra special.

Lost in thought, I got in the car. And something very strange happened. I turned on the car, and music started playing. It was Christian music (not Christmas music). I hadn’t turned on the radio. I thought it was picking up music my husband was playing on his phone in the house. It must be picking up from his Bluetooth. I proceded to back out of the driveway and carry on to complete my tasks. I noticed after a while that the music was still playing. By now I was blocks from home. There is no way it was playing from my husband’s phone. But I never turned on the radio. Hmmm? Finally, at a stop light over a mile from our house, I was getting confused. Another song started. I pulled out my phone. Google Music had started playing these songs without me opening the app or anything. I don’t normally listen to music on my phone. What was happening?

And then, as I drove on, after the second song played, the music stopped. I didn’t turn it off. Thanks to my faith in the Lord above, I figured there is a message I am supposed to be receiving. But what? Later, the words “A Light in the Dark” came into my mind. I wrote them down so I wouldn’t forget. I didn’t know what they meant, but I would find out. As we were getting ready to go to Christmas Eve service, I had this overwhelming feeling that I am supposed to write this story. I am supposed to tell someone. I still didn’t understand, but believed at the right time, I would figure it out.

A few weeks later, the idea of starting a blog crossed my mind. I put it off because I had no idea how to write a blog, besides the fact that I’m not a writer. I kept it tucked away in the back of my mind. Numerous ups and downs occurred in our lives. My mom’s health was declining, we were stuck in quarantine. Last Sunday, an ad came across Facebook…FREE 5 day crash course in starting a blog. What?! Well, if it’s F R E E, why not?

And here I am!